toddler mom

“Wasted State” CAN get very awakening!

I am busy throwing bouncers at the voice in my head….

the voice of my husband, telling me “NEVER MIX DRINKS DARLING! YOU HAVE A BABY’S APPETITE FOR LIQUOR” but when do women listen to their husbands! After all, its our “Feminism” that we ought to stand for! PS: EVEN IF ITS AGAINST OUR OWN GOOD!

PS: THE MAN IS RIGHT! I CAN GET HIGH BY SMELLING LIQUOR AND here I WAS OFF LIMITS!

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WASTED state is MY STAR STATE!

I am STAR-TING to think!

NO WAIT…

Can “thinking” even remotely be processed if you are wasted???

So ya… Two Sangrias, Two Margaritas and one vodka shot down….NOT THINKING!

My mushy organ  (THE BRAIN) is Awakening!

My sense of STAR-awakening is bombed by a phone call from mum-

“When will you guys come back home? Tuktuk is waiting for you!” (The husband and I were out partying with friends while my mother was helping with the baby).

PS: I was having a really good time after ages! I love my daughter and I would run back to her asap but I also love to let my hair down once in a while! I love my life as a woman and as a mother!

Thus, the irritable factor sets in!!!

The Conflict between self and non-self, a conflict between guilt and conscience!

How a woman is always culpable of some thing or the other!

ALWAYS!!!

Time for a conversation (with my own self), which went like –

Question 1.Why did I ever get married in the first place?

Answer 1. I mean WHY NOT! I married because I didn’t have a reason not to!

Question 2.Why I married the husband I am married to?

Answer 2.I couldn’t find a reason to turn down his proposal so, I went ahead and said YES!

Question 3.  Why and when did I decide to take on motherhood?

Answer 3.I never felt against it, so thought might as well!

Now,

7 years since question 1 and 2 and 3 years 8 months since question 3, I can tell you one thing with a stamp of clarity-

Thank god I DIDN’T OVERTHINK!

Else, today I wouldn’t have been sharing with you-

MY DRUNKEN STATE OF GETTING SLOSHED BY HAPPINESS

(yes, the liquor can also be thanked) 

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THEN WE WRAPPED IT UP LIKE THIS!!!